yest was nicholas bday... i really gave him face that day.... that stupid bitch was suppose to go and never go at all... at 5+++ me pin n cheryl already very hungry... but waited for some other bitch to arrive then can go n eat together.. but until 6.30pm still no answer and was told that bitch was not coming and was with mum... ppl bday should go what... dunno why go pei mother... haiz... dunno is coward or dun wan give present or trying to show attitude... then the whole day was like me n pin n cheryl... the rest nv talk to us much... fine.. n dunno which idiot say going to be neutral... in the other... the neutral went over to the enemy line... i was pissed... i was not pissed at nicholas cause i understand his position... then he wanted us to watch movie with him... i just say ok even though i got no $$ n dunno who should i borrow from... cause ppl always make me pay for things and "totally" forgot to pay me back until u remind that person.... in the end all go play pool.... then me pin cheryl continue to play with that nokia machine play all the tune... argh hate nokia... cause always bluff ppl one lor... the melody so nice on the machine but when d/l to the phone is different lor... after playing the machine... went down to join the rest... but like nobody cares abt us much... and just ENJOY themselves.... hate ppl who are damm insensitive and only know how to enjoy themselves dun care abt other ppl... and when problem arise then start to panic n worried... that is what wrong with the whole damm $40 chalet thing... rumours go arouund saying i keep on kao peh that bitch... pls lor after that day i didnt even mention that bitch's name n company... is the ppl around me who mention and keep on asking me this n that.. then i give my respond what... the whole bloody incident was their wrong and now became my fault cause i dao them and dun wan forgive them... what the hell lor.... when ppl offend u... u MUST forgive them one meh?? who the hell said that one lor... i am me myself and i am ALVIN... i got my own freedom to choose who i dun wan to befriend with.... so u think i am a bastard then u can just go away and dun care abt me and i wont give a damm lor... sensitive ppl dun hurt ppl but is the ppl who are insensitive hurt others lor... now there is no more friends of mine who can stand on the neutral side... just that u either with me or with the enemy... there is no middle ground... just like bush view against iraq...

today wanted to go out to find job but in the end nv... cause i was pissed again... ask them to meet at 2.30 n that nai wanted to meet 3... he wan to meet later he just come town and call us n find us lah not as if he is some small kids that will lost in town... then i got no straits times n i ask ngiap to bring n he say he go pei nai... and ask me to go with brandon first... then brandon told me that he cant go out anymore... then i say ok nvm... then i just dun wan to go out at all.... later just go jio ac look for job with me tml... then i confirm go learn electronic keyboard tml... that vocal course is really too ex liao leh.... individual lesson is $160+++ per month and pair lesson is $120++ per month... while group one is $90++... but that time ask they say they dun have group lesson liao... haiz... argh... really hate ppl who are damm cold blanket one and keep on "pouring cold water" at u... i know my singing sux... but nv had anyone encourage me to go for vocal course as that is my passion... all just aiya u just shut up lah... then the fake side of me, surfaced and just laughed with them.... cant stand most of the ppl with too asian mindset... always just scold u, look down on you.. while the western, most of them tends to give u support morally and will praise you and encourage u.... i volunteer at the museum... where you see singaporean kids and those ang moh... usually singaporean parents just help the kids do their craft or scold them when they any how colour their puppet.... while those western parents will just say wow that is good... beautiful...well you have improve.. just boost their determination in doing their work... that's the differences between asian and western parenting... but it doesnt mean we have to follow the west... we just have to choose which is good from which side... i better dun dwell in it....

w-inds song really damm nice....i dunno how keita sing the song until so high pitch... and is so diff for a guy to sing so high and dun sound awful... today i just stone at home to listen to their song.... hehee.....