i have been thinking the whole day.... what if they were chosen to participate SEA games this dec.... then they wont go for this competition at all.... i know how hard the nat team guys have been training.... its so sad that every time those ppl at the top dun allow teams to participate in all these official games like sea games, asian games etc... cuz they know we wont win.. but wat kind of mindset is that... any top sports people start from somewhere!!! why they wont spend that little money in exchange of better experience.... at least they can interact with other sports people for other countries to get advise how to train better.... so many of my friends from different sports in nat team have to fork out own money to compete oversea.... so u know why singapore sports can never improve much?

my mind been filled with images how reuben n weizheng all fall off the boat and struggle to grab on something to keep them alive... seeing those images of bodies on the papers just now really made me sad.... life goes on... gonna be strong... i miss you