yest

la la la... yest went to find xue er at far east her work place man.. then i brought chocolate for her!! she like so happy!! hahaha... then later after her work was talking to her at BK.. hehee... talk abt alot of stuff... as usual... we talk damm loud hahaa... oh ya.. that girl who keep on say hi to me everytime she pass by the roadshow... ask me for my number! *tiao* just give her lor... i am not so bad like someone lor.. i dun always reject ppl lor.. then just give her my number... haha she said she is from NP mass com also! hmm so qiao... then aiyo she ask me out! *tiao again* but i dunno leh.. dunno should go out with her or not leh... hahaha... nah see how ba... anyway cant stand those stupid wall's ice cream girls... keep on come n irritate us to buy ice cream from them... every single day.. haiz... cant make it girls who keep on acting cute hahaa... anyway... dun like them... yucks...

later on at nite... went to meet horsy then went monks... later on evon came.. aiyo evon's gf is my st gabs classmate's sis! haha so qiao man!!! then later on rayn came with his friends also.. then liantee came also... i thought she came too... guess i too sensitive.. anyway... poor rayn... lost his new E700 samsung phone!!! aiyo he hor... dance dance then drop out from the pocket... haiz.. poor thing...

haiz... i very sad leh... couldnt find him there yest... wonder where is he man... then saw another one!! just abt to went up... he left!!! ah!!! so suay!! hahaha.... sad-d... aiyo!! horsy all her friends!!! damm chio!! those les!! tiao!! must go monks with horsy in future... sac got alot chio bu also!!! aiyo... esp got this girl very very friendly!!! she very funny!! so chio!!! tiao... hehee... oh ya... saw that bung who look like my cousin!! aiyo!! so shuai!!! i feel like jioing bung leh... ahahah i am so weird sia!!!! then left at 2am lor... cause its like so sian no one to have fun with me....

sat....

aiyo grace how... so funny today went monks with me n xin ting.. then there dun have any les or bung lor... today her fri then is the les nite... then she say no lor everyday also got ppl go... hahaa anyway we promise liao!! next fri go!!! muahahaa!!! i love les! i love bung! i love gay! i love crook ppl! but i just dun like sissy! ahahhaa.... oh ya yest saw this st gabs senior... yucks... so sissfied... from prefect one la... then today talk to grace alot!! aiyo... my deary grace... miss her so much man... haiz.. but she leaving for aust soon... abt one month time... grace!! i love u!!! hehee... so funny man both grace n xin ting... hahaha...

today sold quite alot of cams... hehee anyway.. really sian today.. haiz... i miss all my friends... suddenly... i feel like giving all my friends a kiss n a hug... tell them i love them... hey to all my friends out there!! if ya reading this... i just wan to let u all know.... i love all of ya!!! muack!!!

oh ya!! today beside my roadshow got some stuff going on!!! saw jean tanker!! then i went to took photo with her!! she is so nice!! hehehe gonna show all of ya soon!!! muahahaha....

// y all my timing all so wrong... when i dun like u... u just come for me... when i like ya.. u just go away... is it all my fault or wat?? i think i just dunno how to grab the chance... \\

!!!!! guess wat!!! someone send me back my wallet!!! oh my god!!! i love that perrson but told my money nvm but all the cards are still there!!! including my neoprints!!! happy!!!! la la la.... but i am now so used to carry that ziplock thing out instead.. so compact.. aiyo but i close my nets n debit card account! haiz... i got it back less than a month... shouldnt go report so early... haiz... nvm... this is my first time lose my wallet.. so must be careful from now on man!!!!

horsy's friend helping me to make a new blog skin!! so happy!! must go get her a xmas present also!!! aiyo yo!! i owe alot ppl xmas present this yr!! must go think what to buy!!! haiz!!

today went for training!! la la la.... alot ppl went for the penang trip... then ok lor didnt played game but was ok la... hahaha today eliza kanna bully by derek like siao! hahahaa... aiya no mood to blog man!! la la la...

so happy that i got back my wallet... cause it really meant alot to me... haruka n shoma gave me one... dun think now levi sell that wallet....

aiyo!!! anyway just now on the way home saw evon!!! haahha!!! she going monk tml!! i also going with her!! la la la... going to ask her intro me alot of butch!! la la la... butch are funny!! hahaha.... i love butch!!! *muack*

// i am gonna see u soon!! hope to see u!! u are so cute!! wanna pinch ur face!! la la la... \\

wow!!! today i work i saw alot alot alot ppl i know man!!! really really alot man!!! all walks of life man!

pri sch friends.... zixin, gim chuan, melvin leh that idiot.. as usual lor always see him one... that time at expo work also will see him... am i curse to meet him everytime or not!!! aiyo.. then this girl i think is called ting ting
sec sch friends.... benjamin ho
JI friends... Leslie!! *drool* i super shock that she drop by!! wau lau!! i totally faint!! so chio!! i wan to turn str8 for her!! hahaha!!! aiyo... my first love of this year!! aiyo leslie!! chio bu n she is super duper nice person!!!
Canoe friends... jerlyn!! think she with her bf ar.. hahaa... derek!! when i was in the train back home.. hahaa..
museum friends!! shaffinaz and zaimah!!

later on i went lunch with naodia [debbie's friend] then went to scotts foodcourt! saw stephanie!! and saw phyllicia dunno how to spell la.. haha then saw them!! aiyo so long nv see them le!! the steff told me charlene cut her hair until very nice then blah blah hahaha...

aiyo i was wrong man... that girl work there now is not the samsung girl.. is colin's friend... not wonder i was like huh why that samsung girl suddenly turn till so ugly? hahaha... so bad.. anyway both girls are so foxy.. dun like...

then today novi came!!! aiyo she so nice as usual!! hahaha so sweet.. i told her i am hot.. then she say ok next time which roadshow u work i will put air con just for u! hahaha!! aiyo tao yan! hahah... then novi she dress till so nice!! so diff from the work she is in the office!! like one super star!! hahaha...

oh ya.. then today pin yue came!! then she got into sajc... she wanted to go vjc.. but short of a point! poor thing!! aiyo then tell her go acjc ma!! she like dun wan lor... but i keep nagging her.. then i say.. eh u go ac right at least the sch is much more decent than sa lor.. and u are paying for the same amt of sch fees! why dun go acjc?!?! got swimming nice sch yan dao kia everywhere... aiyo *drool* hahaa then i just keep on nagging her... then talk to her damm damm long!!!

then zixin today pass me back my shirt! aiyo zixin so sweet n nice also!! she help me wash the shirt then return to me!! then she got the new LG 7100 that screen n turn turn turn one!! damm nice lor!! i really love it lor!! its really nice!!! aiyo!!! so nice man!!! haahha...

// are u the one?? or am i the one?? \\

woke up late... then ngiap already wait for me in town liao... felt so bad lor cause we went to watch movie that ngiap watch liao haiz... anyway went to buy SPEED CD le!! ELIZA!!! i bought at $17.90!! hahaha! u bought at $18.90!! hahaha! then went GIO get my berms!! hehehe i love it man!

saw yun yi at PS!!! hahaa... saw her again!! aiyo her bf so shuai... *drools* then xue er came!! ya she bought the acs baker sch mag!! wau lau so many yan dao kia!! *drool* haahahh... aiyooyoyoo!! so nice!! so regret nv go acs[alvin chinese school] man.. haiz.. anyway going to look at the book until i siao! hahaa...

the show love actually very nice!! oh my god!!! alot thumbs up!! must watch man... aiyo.. i was like so lovesick n watch that lovey dovy show.. then felt even emptier.. that's why i haiz so much today sarah... haiz... then aiyo that guy so sweet he wrote words on the cards n play xmas song!! hahaha.. love is all around!!! haiz..

oh ya.. then got this part show that super hunky guy going to do that with the girl... then got this young kid couple beside me... the girl keep making that kind of delicious sound then drool on that guy.. then keep saying aiyo so cute... then when show the part of the sexy girl... she beat the bf n say stop staring! wau lau... so suay.. why the gf can see other guys then the bf cant see other girls... haiz...

xue er left early.. then ngiap already at home.. haiz.. then me with nai n sarah... felt so OUT! but ok la cause both of them also my very gd friends ma.. aiyo sarah wore this skirt so short today! hahaha... poor thing then nai nai have to block front n back.. so funny.. then went to find naodia... went around... only find things i like at pacific plaza...

this is wat i want for xmas...

new bag.. quiksilver $69
new long sleeve sweater.. ripcurl $79 very nice!! [maybe will get it..]
new boardshorts.. quiksilver.. $65??
new balance track shoes.. $110 [can bargain la]
new sneaker.. nike.. budget 80 to 100 ba.. ask nai for cheap n nice shoes...
new handphone strap..
new boxer shorts..
new facial wash n scrub.. body shop..
new w-inds album
new accessories...

estimated money spent... $450... wau lau!! alot sia!! haiz... but anyway its worth it lor cause i wont be buying new bag n shoes for like a yr? haha.. i am having 2nd doubt on getting a canoe boat... i think i just get the paddle.. then my trip to japan the money target change from 3k to 4k... i love japan! *muack*

then just now walk past the roadshow.. hahaha no one notice me! hahaa.. then that samsung girl.. kao she looks like shit today.. then got show sarah they all the pic beforehand then all said chio.. after seeing her there.. nai nai said... sarah lucky i hold ur hand! wau lau nai nai damm bad sia!! chek arh.. oh ya! today saw mok xiao ling... she not as pretty as that day saw her leh.. then saw that lin xiang pin.. on the way home i saw louis n cynthia!! my ex collegue from kushin bo!! hahaa but they dun recognise me then nv talk to them la...

was at borders just now... cant find many books on canoe polo leh... even canoe also dun have much.. then saw only this bk.. then was looking at it.. was looking for some stuff that will help me during the game.. hahaha aiya canoe polo stuff i will blog at my canoe polo blog..

// i dun wan to remember the past.. i just wan to carry on my way.. find someone NICE to me.. someone who really CARE abt me.. NOT COLD towards me.. \\

from xue er blog!! damm funny!! light up my day!!!

I took a bus home. I mean I always take train one, but dunno why I jsut suddenly feel lie taking bus. And the most.. hmmmmm.. how should I put it across....??? Anyway while I was on bus, at a certain stop this guy (*shld be around my age or a bit older*) sat beside me. Then, in front of us got this couple was like soooooo into each other lo. They were hugging and whispering, kissing like SIAO! In the bus some more.. i really felt so disgusted. But free show mah, so watch lo... HAHAHAHA... worse still beside our seat was another couple. But this time is teenager one, ONE GIRL ONE BUTCH.. also hugging and kissing like SIAO, even more passionate then the couple in front of us. So we were like surrounded with 2 free show to watch. We kept looking at the butch one.... until got one part the bus jerk then the butch fell of her seat. Me and that guy just burst out laughing at the SAME time, so paiseh lorX, cos so loud. The butch's girlfriend stare at us, the guy also stare back and made a face. Then I cannot control, kept laughing... until almost cry. The guy really so brave and funny, cos he some more whisper out loud saying," want to kiss also dunno how to seat properly!" SO FUNNY lo... in the end me and that guy just ended up talking. HAHAHAHAH~!!! We were discussing about kissing couples on the bus... -laughs- Hes name is Chris... very funny person... through teh whole journey he kept on suaning the butch. Laugh until i also got stomach ache. I alighted earlier than him, he did asked me for my number but I told him I got no handphone. At first he gave me that," dont bluff me" kind of look. But I explain to him about how I lost my phone thingy... then he believe me. hahah, so he very sweet, he so paiseh to ask my house number. But I told him its better if I dont give him my house number... very dangerous maHx... my mother~!!! He was okay with it, ended up he gave me hes number. HAHAHA, and said," you call me ok. No need paiseh. Maybe we can do something tgt or take bus see kissing couples fall off their seats again!" HAHAHAHA (*the butch was still on the bus lo*) I think he purposely add the last sentence. Buttttttttt hes is so funny and nice~! =) -sighs- dunno if should call hima not??? So weird loX, girl call boy + I only know less than an hour + I will be betraying my never call people theory. -shrugs- Must call alvin and ask what he thinks. -smiles- He quite good looking lo, can make it. Sporty look. he was wearing surf shorts, normal tee and quick silver slippers. carry big big bag, also dun know inside put what, can get so big. hahahaha... oh and he wore spects.. look intelligent -smiles-

today went training in the morning wau lau no one lor... only me n wei hong nia!!! haiz... no choice la... then we just gym lor... hahaa so strengthless... anyway later on i dunno why i just got the urge to run for 20 rounds... haiz.. guess in the movies they show ppl who just fall out of love can really run alot... haiz... *sad-ed* anyway... i am still in a saded mood... just act strong in front of everyone la... end of the day still sit down n stare into empty spaces...

later on i go meet xue er go for job interview lor... anyway nothing to do also... hahaha the 77th street office very stylo leh!! hahaha... then later on go town.. PS giordano... aiyo!! miss everyone!!! kanika!!! i suddenly just really really miss working at giordano lor... aiyo kanika... got new ah boy liao... dun wan me le... the new ah boy also same as us.. 17.. but taller than me.. haiz.. but he like very toot toot one leh... hahaha aiyo that angie hor so funny!! aiyo if only i am working at PS now... haiz... sad-ed so sad-ed but couldnt lor... due to sch work n canoe... haiz... miss everything... then saw kai shi n jo.... hahaha so qiao... anyway i reserve a berms today at gio!!! super cheap got staff discount!!! only $13.30!!! muahahaha i going to get another one also so shota... my host mother's son... aiya now he grown up le... almost same size as me... then later walk awhile more left le....

then today canoe training.. haiz everyone is like against each other sia... so scary... so fierce n tense... aiyo relax la... i am not in any position to talk la cause i so long nv come down... anyway... i twisted my ankle!!!!!!!!! aiyo... n now my stupid mother she dun wan to gimme money to see the chinese doc lor... so sad... i got a very poor life la.. haiz.. so must work in holiday.. cause my mother forever dun wan to gimme money to buy stuff lor.... fuck sia... she wan me to walk like some handicapped ppl forever.... hate her... i will nv forget how she scar my face ok.... i am the only one with scar on my face... not even my 2 idiotic brothers... argh... sometimes i look into the mirror... really sad... feel like crying lor... why she abuse me so badly when i was young... take the incense poke my face k! n wack on my face... haiz.... its seems that my life seems so worthless.... haiz... still emotionally instable...... i need someone to comfort me now.... haiz... felt so empty inside me... haiz...

eliza bought SPEED new album... i going to buy tml too... its super nice... esp stars to shine again, crying and walking in the rain.......... i super duper like walking in the rain lor... describe exactly how i feel now... so lonely... walking in the rain with no umbrella... and the song crying also.... aiyo... why i feel so xin ku now... i dnno why everynite i just feel very sad... maybe cause i know by the end of the day... i am still all alone... why when i cry my heart is feeling pain.... haiz... feeling really low now... haiz.. leave me alone..... haiz... if one day i just left... just forgive me for not telling u all... haiz.. wat am i thinking now... haiz...

// i just feel so sad now.... really sad... that someone who is really meant for me... pls come out n save me from dying... i am feeling weak now... i think i should just really been gay ba.. hurt by girls so much... someone just come help me pls... \
Ken Dear Dear: haiz... forget it la dear... i think i give up le... i am not god.. i dunno wat she is thinking... she keep on being so quiet... i dunno wat she thinking... i am just like stuck in the dead end...

Sarah jie mei: haiz... i sad is it because i still have feeling for her??? or is it that i just felt so empty with no one around... haiz.. i dun even think she knows i am suffering.... its killing me... haiz..


Xue Er: not funny lor... i actually very sad la... dun see me joke with u... i just try to forget my sadness... but its all comes back to me... so glad u find the one u like... haiZ... wat abt me... will just forever be single... i just dun have the right to love... i must have done some kind of sin...

Ziting: ya its yun yi from MBS one our class mate......

its just another tiring day.... argh... i dunno why everytime alot ppl misunderstood wat i said in my blog... haiz.. anyway.. i dun like that samsung girl k... n she hor... kao.. think she is a fox... then the colin that dealer of the roadshow go let her work n replace us olympus staff! wat the fuck lor!! cause its like... we olympus give him all the free gifts n rent all the spacefor him n he earn damm damm alot like shit... n he is kicking us out! wat the fuck!! anyway amos n jordan know abt it man!! wonder if they can change the dealer!!! if not just ask him be the cashier man n shut up!!! idiot...

ok tell u all who i saw past 2 days... i saw kym ng!! she super chio in real life!! then saw tat cynthia koh again.. she speaks ang moh to her bf... LOL.. then saw yun yi!!! hahaha 4yrs nv see her!! she in MJC lor.. then that day they show me his bf then i saw it real life... wau!!! really shuai.. *drool*... hahaha.. then saw that wei heng... yucks... then diana n naomia or naodia.. aiyo the twins i until now still can differentiate.. then toilet pass by also!!! oh ya.. then ac later on at nite drop by with her sis n her mother!! hahaa.... ac said i hit her very hard that nite at monks.. then i was like... huh??? hahaha super fun man!! esp the me against the music!!! muahaha.... i wan to go monks again this fri!!! someone jio me can??? must go msg kerrie... hehee... oh ya... then i saw a few bungs i saw at monks the other day.. hahaa...

sarah: dear sarah... dun sad leh... actually nai nai really turn into a nice nice guy... thank to u.. really.. he really chance into a really nice gentleman now.. i dun think he like someone else or wat.. dun feel so insecure la... he really fu chu alot for u... haiz... i am so shock but what he did for u... i dun even know if i can do that for the one i like......

haiz... i dunno man... everytime i look at a couple holding hands joking around walking down the street... i just envy them... its like so xin fu lor... i always day dream that soon i will be like them..... able to hold her hand... walking down the street... but for not... i dunno why... i think i too rush into making the decision that i should not like her.... i guess that day i am just super duper emotionally super duper down... i am feeling very emotion unstable nowadays... haiz... i think i can cry whole day long... haiz... i dunno why... i think i am so BI lor..... i am still thinking abt tat jappy guy at monks that day... haiz... i really dun like any girl now.... i so irritated by those girls who come forward n trying to know me... esp that wall's ice cream girls.. aiyo.. keep on looking at me.. aiyo... then everyday at friendster those girls keep wanting me to add them.. siao... dream on,... i guess i should just put i am GAY at friendster... then no girls will msg... aiyo.. also got those fat fat disgusting guys also come ask me to add them... yucks... haiz..

// i dunno if i still like u or not... i just cant think now... i am feeling tired... i am very sad now... i am in a depression period... i just wan to isolate myself... i just need a break.... i cant take it anymore... i going to breakdown soon... \\