TIME & FRIENDS

song: vitamin C - graduation

didnt really wanted to blog... but after reading some of my friends' blog... yeah.. i decided to blog.. was reading hannah blog on how her friends changed her to be a better person n how much stuff she learnt... i was kinda touched by what she wrote over there... sometime i wish that wat will i be if i were to go to JC... i guess i was wrong about CJC... i couldnt get in SAJC n didnt put ACJC as my choice n i look down on CJC... that is the reason why i dun wan go JC anymore n go on to poly... shouldnt judge a book by its cover huh... guess wat... today i was doing my ACMB paper n i was totally LOST... i dunno how to do the questions.. then i keep on thinking why i end up choosing some course which i thought i will love it n excel... i was wrong AGAIN... i look back n think... maybe i should just get myself in JC n just study hard like sec sch... i think i am a person that belongs to a uniform sch with teachers chasing us for the homework... but everytime i think that i have made a wrong decision in going poly... i would have thought of how honour am i allow to go for the japan exchange program and the canoe polo... however... i could have excel in other sports too i guess... and i still miss sch uniform alot... a sense of belonging... being in poly.. the only time when i feel really proud of the sch is when i was wearing the IVP jacket.. i touch the sch badge n i feel... so proud... something which not many poly students will get to experince... i hate many poly students that just come to sch n study n just wan to get the hell out of poly asap... i feel that i should belong in a place where the sch spirit is so strong...

FRIENDS.... i bumped into one of my friends just now... he said that he was quite disappointed with friends around him... nv reach out for him when he is having a difficult time... said that many of them are so fake... i myself also thinks that i sometime i still belongs to those very kiddy days where i think that everyone will be as innocent as me... esp since this year... i really start to look at my friends n think abt them on the 2nd thought... why is everyone trying to make themselves look so DAMM BLOODY COOL when they are not... everyone is like dying to be the rich n famous... why cant we envy those ppl who lead simple n carefree life... many ppl around me do things just for their own good... cant they think for everyone! so many ppl are so afriad to stand out... they are afriad that they will fall.. they are the real weaklings... staying at their comfort zone... i think i am starting to feel fake too... time to do some soul searching...

i find that the graduation song is really really really nice... even though its like so old but who cares! its still something that is really meaningful... look back at st gabs... i realise that those ppl in my class that i think will turn bad DIDNT! in fact they are better ppl than before n vice versa... i felt that i kinda wasted my life in st gabs... everyday nothing but just study... and in i always do my hw ON TIME... yes... but i dun revise my work la just complete all my hw... nv submit hw late... hardly sleep in class... return home STR8 if i have not scouts... i dun play soccer so dun hang out with those guys.. only play basketball once a while with some guys from other class... i wasted my YOUTH! i could have continue playing rugby in sch like st andrew or barker... but i dun think i can get in st andrew with my 222 psle score... but i confirm can get into barker... i realise i can really talk to barker ppl better than other ppl... dunno why.. hahaha... but i love their sports genes man! woohoo... hahaa...

today going town to find fung n nick... then on the way saw brandon kam! hahaha bloody idiot... borrow 10cents from me to buy things that i dun like! pls la brandon! be a good boy! like me! good boy u know... anyway was really nice talking to him... its like really a long time since i really SIT DOWN n talk to him... ya need somemore catchup with him n nicolle n the rest of the gang... then on the way to town on the bus saw zhanghao!! so qiao! haha n talk to him NONSTOP... keep on talking n talking hahahaa he is a damm nice guy to talk to... hahhaa...

watch white chicks with them la... its was just ALRIGHT... not really funny... not worth 8.50... just download can liao hahaha... ok gtg sleep need to mug...