i know this might be sudden.... but i decided to save up money to go australia to study.. transfer to other uni after my stage 1 in SIM-RMIT... will share accomodation with friends... yeah... i still have another year to decide.... meanwhile i gonna strive to score high distinction for my next 2 semester... well... not gonna have my 23rd n 24th birthday party... with great dream comes with greater sacrifice... yup... i shall save n scrap now... if anyone would like to donate to my education fund do email me :)

if i dun sacrifice now... i will just regret for the rest of my life...

we are all cowards in the face of happiness.... if we want happiness, we need to use our both hands and reach out for it....

この広い世界で、

君の手は、

僕の心を触ってから、

暖かいなりました。

幸せの人生が欲しいかる、

すべてに頑張ります。

よかった！！ exams over!!

i dun think will be working this holiday... since economy is bad... so i gonna continue studying!!!

this holiday.....

1. i gonna learn guitar on my own if not ask my friends to teach.... borrow guitar from julin already haha...
2. i gonna brush up my japanese then in jan gonna continue my japanese class... CANT WAIT!!
3. find tuition job to pay for my japanese classes....
4. start my saving plan...
5. read up on investment n finish all my books!!!
6. meet up with friends
7. gym n training!!!

i watch high school muscial 3: senior year yesterday!!! its quite nice!!! hahaha.... go catch it... :)



i hope i pass all my modules... if not i will act in high school music 4.... the repeat year! HAHA

and NIGHT SCHOOL MUSCIAL at http://www.nbc.com/Saturday_Night_Live/video/clips/night-school-musical/810988/

LONG LOST PRIMARY SCH FRIEND..... for a decade!

me, nadia and pei qin! i was facebooking n i found my pri sch friend pei qin!!! hahaha and she is link to nadia my borders colleague!! this world sooooo small!! so i went NUS to meet them for lunch!! hahaha.... catch u two again soon!

Biotech gathering with just 3ppl!

we went michigan... just the 3 of us...


ya hui, yao and me... hahahah poor zhen you have to work OT... and as usual the rest nv come... booooooo


me n yao just love this jap curry place... n it was monday so got discount on seafood curry!! hahaha


yao wants to go michigan... hahaha


ya hui n yao... damm long nv meet ya hui already... 


me n ya hui.... this was like few weeks ago... hahaha... overdue photos that have not post!

GOODBYE MY YOUNGER BRO!

my elder bro, my father, my younger bro, my mother n ME! i seriously dun look like my brothers... i think both of them look more like my father n i look more like my mum...

my bro going france with the air force as storeman for 1yr... HOW GOOD CAN IT GET sia! tamade... hahah i damm JEALOUS... but hey guesss what..... when he is away... i can use his 32inch samsung plasma tv in my room!!! sweeet!

now my house is soooooo empty.... i felt as if i am the only child... cuz my elder bro likes to stay with my grandma... so ya... most of the time i am home alone... gonna party often in my house... i thinking my room can be mambo... then my younger bro room be phuture hahaha...

my bro with my aunt...


with my maternal grandparents....


didi with ah gong n ah ma.....

it was damm sad when my bro left... my mum just hug him n he suddenly cry n my mother also cry... i see already also cry! aiyo... he irritating bro no matter wat... still a small boy.. even though he is 20 but he very kiddy... his command of english is not even average and he is flying to france ALONE! i thought like he will fly with someone from the army but dun have lor!!

his return flight is confirmed next yr... its on matthew chia's 21st birthday... haha... see u next yr...

i was SHORT CIRCUITED....

went for short circuit 3 on sat... before that i was mugging somewhere like a nerd! hahaha... argh... i just need to relax... so went to substation n have some fun!


when i went to the toilet at substation... i saw this on the cubicle door... DAMM FUNNY LA... i was like WTF! hahaha..... i think some day i gonna write some lame joke on the toilet door... mauhauha...

i was supposed to be just an audience end up shuming asked me to be the usher... hahaha i guess i was like anyhow... hahaa... ops...

alfian interviewing the film makers.... i really like the malay short film... damm damm funny.. hahaha... and eva's korean short film... damm emo...

then chia meng, leon and junfeng all their films were showing too... hopefully next year i can attend again.... i just LOVVVVVVVVVE local short films....

thanks james for the gift... he got a fish eye extension thing for my canon ixus 80... quite cool...

thanks leon too for his smooth e facial wash! hahaha... and lend me TALKING COCK movie... hahah i gonna get damm lame... the best of all.... HE GOT A COPY OF THE SHORT FILM I WAS IN 3YRS AGO!!! THE BUS!!! damm nice la.... i watch it again... its really a very nice short film abt the bus in singapore...

THANKS EVERYONE!!!!!

anyway i found that korean emo song in eva's film....



i cant find the english lyrics so i used the online tool to translate it so its kinda weird... but its damm emo in the short film to see the girl cry n sing it... and she is REALLY CRYING not acting kind... wau....... sweee ah!

nami - seulpeuninyeon

I was going back and looking at moving away
Do you think I will still parting moment

Used to be that in many sweet memories
How do we sop to the heart

Oh, do come back you can not stand the loneliness
Oh, I'll be back

However, when you see you again
Do you think we can love flowing through the years
You do not know how many tears drop
Used to be that in many sweet memories
Sop to the two of us, like we do

Oh, do come back you can not stand the loneliness
Oh, I'll be back, back again

However, when you see you again
Do you think we can love
All those years you how to flow
Tears do not know a lot of noise

However, when you see you again
Can we love to love
All those years you how to flow
Tears do not know a lot of noise

DUN U JUST LOVE SARAH MCLACHLAN!!!

her new song is spinning in my mind the whooooooole day.....

sarah mclachlan - U want me 2

the lyrics sooo nice.... i really love the part she sang "... our eden's a failure..." oh man.. how good can she get! pretty good!? cuz she is soooo pretty..... sorry i need to destress so pardon my lame-ness...

You walk on by
Clueless and so high
Following your aimless path away from us
You're so far away
And what can I say
Cause I can't be the one you wanted me to be

So tell me how do you feel
It's so confusing
If you let it all go, it'll fall apart
Do you want me to stay and say I still want you
You want me too, don't you?

So what are we saying
Our eden's a failure
A made-up story to fit the picture-perfect world
The one with "I do"s
and I love you
And we are made for each other
Is forever over now?

And tell me how do you feel
It's so confusing
If you let it all go, it'll fall apart
Do you want me to stay and say I still want you
You want me too, don't you?

I hope there's forgiveness
In the distance between us
Can we make what lies ahead of us a better place to be?

So tell me, how do you feel
It's so confusing
If you let it all go, it'll fall ---
Do you want me to stay and say I still want you
You want me too, don't you?

i officially declare that i am NOT fat anymore... i am UNDER WEIGHT....

my weight is 59KG can u believe it... fuck... my normal weight is 61-62kg.... scary man... guess must be the land training the other day with my juniors... i almost died.... my knee n ankle is really in a very bad state... i think i should just totally retire from running... if not i really will sit on wheelchair pretty soon.... and i know why my year 1 juniors are all so tone... damm scary sia... hahaha... they make me feel fat.. even though i am not fat but they just make me feel fat! someone pls buy me a gym ball... it look stupid but its the best thing on earth to train abs!

today my finance service industry paper.... i thought i wont be able to finish in 3hrs but i did it in 2hrs 15mins! when i was doing all my questions i was like... omg omg distinction distinction!! i just going crazy man! i am very satisfied with my paper... and tmr gonna be accounts... all the best ERUBIN!

in 9 hrs time i will be sitting for my first paper!!!

cant believe i keep study abt bond everywhere... from my biotech course in poly i studied ionic bond, convalent bond... and now.... doing my finance module... i studying abt bond market! deferred bond, zero coupon bond.... wat's next? JAMES BOND? HAHA...

today went to cd shop to look at sarah mclachlan latest cd... closer... the greatest hit album i have most of the songs... i got the old album... only 2 new songs... can someone pls send me! LOL....

really love this song... wanted to change my blog song to this but i cant find it on imeem!!

anyway enjoy this song...

Sarah Mclachlan - U want me 2

you walk on by
clueless and so high
following your aimless path
away from us

your so far away
and what can i say
casue i cant be the one
you wanted me to be

[Chorus]
so tell me how do you feel
its so confusing
if you let it all go it will fall apart
do you want me to stay and say
"i still want you"
you want me too dont you?

(ba ba ba)

so what are we saying
our edens a failuire
a made up story to fit the
picture perfect world

the one with "i do"
and "I love you"
and "we are made for each other"
is forever over now

[chorus]

I hope theres forgiveness
in the distance between us
can we make the lives ahead of us
a better place to be

[chorus]

(ba ba ba baa da da ta X4)

PS: woodstock... i know u want me 2...

萬芳-新不了情
this song nv fail to make me cry.... LOL
i think i am addicted to emo-ing.... haha



玉置浩二 - 行かないで
tamaki koji - ikanaide
now i like this japanese old man... his songs is damm good... and i found this ultra emo song with damm nice lyrics...
行かないで -> ikanaide means dun go!

何も　見えない、　何も
ずっと　泣いてた

だけど、悲（かな）しいんじゃない
暖（あたた）かい、あなたに、触（ふ）れたのが、嬉（うれ）しくて
ああ......
行かないで、行かないで、
何时（いつ）までも、ずっと、话（はな）さないで
ああ......
行かないで、行かないで
このままで......


何时（いつ）か、心は何时か
远（とお）い 何処（どこ）かで
皆（みんな） 思（おも）い出になると
知（し）らなくて いいのに、知（し）らなくて いいのに
ああ......
行かないで、行かないで、
どんな时でも 话さないで
ああ......
行かないで、行かないで、
このままで......


ああ......
行かないで、行かないで、
何时（いつ）までも、ずっと、话（はな）さないで
ああ......
行かないで、行かないで、
このままで......

this xmas.... i will get this... la la la....

santa claus is very nice this year... hahaha